these days it's really easy to appear like you've got it all together. whether on social media or otherwise. but the truth of the matter is, nobody does. especially not me :) oof. admitting that is real freeing.
sometimes work and life and love and all matters of the heart just weigh on me to the point of anxiety. sometimes i wake up at 2 am and can't fall back asleep for 2 hours because my mind is racing with anything and everything>>the good, the bad, the ugly, the anticipation, the future, the past. yeesh. you name it, i'm thinkin about it.
i think i found a solution, at least one that works for me. for now :) i've been on this 'thing' lately where i go somewhere that's not home at least once a month. it seriously keeps me sane. i get so caught up in all i hafta do here for work and life that i forget to breathe sometimes. so i literally have to go away to take a minute and regroup. do you ever feel like that? just completely overwhelmed? with ALLLLLLL of the things?
i honestly think its oneuv the best things you can do for yourself. to get out of your normal routine (if you can make the time to). explore. see new places; beautiful places. places that make your heart explode in awe or places with old friends that feel like home. places that remind you that this world is spinning and you can't control what happens, but that somehow, it's all connected, it all works together beautifully, and it ALL ALWAYS sorts itself out. this trip was that reminder.
first i took a one-way flight to SF to see two old friends from when i was an oregonian. we did some city outings, shot skeet at a shooting range, celebrated the release of a rosé they had a part in creating with their dining group STAG DINING and just sat around and caught up. i also got to visit with a friend from college who's now an incredible artist in the SF area and spent the day helping her in her studio. check her out>> ALEKSANDRA ZEE
next we adventured through the sierra nevada mountains together back down to san diego.
we spent two days in the mammoth lakes area, and in those two days, we filled up on as much explorin as we could. it was just the best. and it reminded me of what i needed reminding about: its all okay. just let go. follow your heart. follow your dreams. and love people.
simple, right? easier said than done sometimes :)
while tessa and i were just laying in the middle of a grassy meadow watching parker fly fish, we began sharing quotes from the books we'd been reading lately. hers was NATURE by RWE and i've been re-reading THE ALCHEMIST (one of my all time favorites). i thought i'd share em here along with the photos in hopes that you could experience all they meant to us in these surroundings, and maybe, they'd touch your heart in the same way.
from NATURE: //the lover of nature is he whose inward and outward senses are still truly adjusted to each other; who has retained the spirit of infancy even into the era of manhood. his intercourse with heaven and earth becomes his daily food. in the presence of nature, a wild delight runs through the man, in spite of real sorrows.//
from THE ALCHEMIST: //tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. and that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with god and with eternity.//
//if you pay attention to the present, you can improve upon it. and, if you improve on the present, what comes later will also be better. forget about the future, and live each day according to the teachings...each day, in itself, brings with it an eternity.//
just breathe guys. you are loved.